It’s been awhile. Maybe it was the blandness of the summer
ashy haze that made this summer a little bleak, but I’m ready for Fall and some
excitement.
The day before school started, our doggy died. I still can’t
talk about it without choking up. It’s silly, I know. But she was the best 4-legged
creature there ever was. So full of love for us, that dog was. I think that’s
what I miss the most. I was Very Important to her. And she loved me even when I
was cranky. She drove me crazy with the morning surprises of doggy-vomit down
the heat vent by the back door and honestly my carpet has never been cleaner,
but I’d take it all back for one day just to properly say goodbye to her and to
make sure she knew just how much I loved her. I guess that’s the lesson in life
– don’t take advantage of the things around you, be them big things like your
loved ones or small things like a fast computer… which I do not have right now,
and am currently coveting…
I’ve decided that Perfectionism = Anxiety. (and consequently, Anxiety = Grumpy...)
I’ve also decided that I’m getting the band back together! Band as in graphic design. I’ve taken time off, I’ve pursued other various pipe dreams,
but my life gets led straight back to this point. I think God’s trying to tell
me that I’m meant to be a visual communicator. How exactly this will play out I
don’t know, but I’m trusting Him that this is the path to take. I’ve got a list
of clients building up again – a lot of new contacts that
I’ve never worked with before.
I’ve also been asked to paint a picture. It is sort of one of those various pipe dreams I was talking about earlier. I imagine that someday I will get enough paintings together, and I will have a gallery
show somewhere. I can honestly say I have very little focus when it comes to
big ticket dreams like this. In fact, I also want to write a book. And be a children's photographer. And pay off our mortgage.
And do some of those cool things I find on Pinterest. Damn you, Pinterest!!!
So all in all, I need a healthy shot of organization (and laughter – I need a night out, involving some good beer and good friends!).
Life can be pretty overwhelming when you have everything on your mind all at
once (and it all gets so stinking serious
in my mind -- does that happen to anyone else?). I’ve got my datebook, and I’m sorting out
my time slots for work, volunteer, and play (play,
play,and some more play).
I love to last-minute panic about what to make for supper and see what I come up with. It's kind of a sick obsession of mine. I found a delightful crust-less quiche that is uninspiringly named Picante Potato Pie. Don't let the name fool you, it's actually quite good. I just cooked it for 45 minutes right away instead of letting it sit in the fridge overnight and cooking for 30. It was a hit with the husband -- eggs, potatoes & bacon. But light and all the tastes melded together well.
-amber
